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Apologies or excuses should not be accepted, but would it help to tell you I was up pass 1 am doing E&M Physics? =( It probably won't.

Since it is just before 7:30 and I have to get ready to my desk job, I'll again have to keep this brief.

I was raised Catholic. Somewhere between seeing Fiddler on the Roof at 10 y/o and reading loads of literature on Judaism at about 15 y/o I decided I should become Jewish. By about age 20 I just could not believe in God anymore. I heard one former religious reporter on NPR go through something similar: Protestantism to Catholicism to nothing. He said it was "like a light switch going off."

I think that is the best description I ever heard. Only one of my brothers knows of my experience about religion and that is because I just told him over spring break this past March. He is the only person in my family - and I am damned close to my family. I just do not think they would understand that where I am religiously/ spiritually is not what I would consider a choice. If I could choose to believe in God, I would. Faster than you can say ... Because damnit it would make things a hell of a lot easier to deal with. The recent death of an aunt I was close to would not feel so permanent. I would have a community. For now, however, the light switch is just off.